Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Overdue Update!

There's been a lack of updates. Well, there's been something esle in my life...


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Mug, Mug

And it's mugging!

I mean when you see such nicknames the moment you log into your secondary school class channel, guess it's hard to actually not try to mug. Mugging > blogging.

So I've been trying. Trying's really an appropiate word. Because between Europa on Wednesday and getting wasted at Devils' on Friday, to the football game on Sunday, I've like done a grand total of 1 reading. Well done! =(

Now I've just got to actually try successfully to mug. HAha.. =P

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Extended 21st

Went out with another group of friends for my 21st again today. Played mahjong in the evening then went to play billard(with my new personal cue from you darlings, no less) at night, finally ending with supper and beer at Katong.

Seems like the 21st birthday bash's never gonna end. We were looking around for a decent pub to drink after we went down and found that the hot tequila girl's pub was at full house. So decided to go somewhere esle. But most of those we went to pussy pubs closed at 2am. And it was already almost 1. So decided that there was no point and we went to a kopithiam for a 'uncle' session instead.

To be honest, I'm 21 and I don't feel anything special. I dunno. Maybe it's supposed to be a milestone, when one enters adulthood but ya, just don't really feel much at this point. Besides all the celebrations, guess turning 21's not all its cracked up to be.

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A while ago, Kerk asked me what my aims were.

I still can't answer that, besides aiming to be filthty rich by 45. But I guess it'll be right to list down what I wanted in my life when I was 18 and how close I've come to it at 21.

At 18, I wanted at 21 to :

-To be in University
-To still be in contact and close to my friends
-To learn to be more tolerant
-To know what I want in life
-To be SAGGF with someone that I really care for

At 21, I am :

-In University (Abeit not the course I wanted)
-Still close to friends I care about (Love you people)
-Mild mannered (I really think so compared to in the past)
-Not sure of what I want to achieve (except be filthy rich by 45)
-Still looking for the one. (tho I've found the sub)

Seems to me I've not hit my aims at all. So now at 21, I hope at 25 to be :

-Debt free
-No longer having to do my 'work'
-Ace my exams
-SAGGF (with the right person)

Hope if I read this 4years later, I've achieved my goals this time. =)

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Anyway, there's been a lack of nonsense from me on my blog. Next entry will be a typical nonsencial one. Heh.. Been too serious lately... Must be the excessive mugging. =P

(Anyway, from Kerk's account, the NKF video's been circulated too excessively liao lah.. If NKF sue me I think I'll just fuck spider and die leh....)

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Mugging!

After much consideration, I have decided to skip my stats lecture and tutorial today, and stay at home to mug. Wish me luck~ =)

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Weird...

Well, my assignments last week have been graded and the results have been released~

Got an A- for my drawing assignment, and got 10, 9, and 13 out of 15 for my 3 written assignments 1, 2 and 3 respectively. Strange.

Because I expected to do okay for assignment 2 and badly screw up assignment 3. Why? Because I did plenty of research and reading for assignment 2 while on the other hand, did a straight-to-MSword, no reading, no research, and no proper drafting 30min effort for assignment 3. So you can see why I was optimistic about 2 and worried about 3. But...

Horror of horrors...
(These are actual comments left by the Tutorial Assistant)

Individual Assignment #2 - Need to learn how to respond to and review an article instead of copying so closely

Individual Assignment #3 - Well-discussed with personal input, systematic and organised. self-critical as well


Damn ironic lor~ NUS.. Tmd... =(

I think the secret to doing well's actually lies within non-preparation! =P

Monday, September 12, 2005

21st

Maybe I'm drunk. Maybe it's just something inside of me dying to be expressed. Sooo here goes..
I first saw you on the bus. You looked gorgeous. But you didn't strike me as anymore then a pretty face then, at that time.

I started to know you better. I'll disturb you with lame "I see you, be afriad, be very afriad~" messages whenever I saw you at Tampines central or Katong.

Then I fell into the lowest I've ever been emotionally. I could tell you liked me. But I didn't feel anything for you. But I wanted somebody to keep my company through my hardest times. I didn't wanna be alone. So we ended up together..

Life does play funny tricks on people...

忘了是怎黱开始
也许就是对你
一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
以深深爱上你
真的很简单


I found myself falling for you. Liking you. Really really liking you. For some reason, I genuinely felt comfortable with you. I could share everything in my life with you, and I loved to listen to you as well. I was happiest with you. For the first time in my life, I felt like I was ready to settle down.

Then it all fell apart. As quickly as it started. Maybe I was too young and too immature. I didn't understand how you felt, and I reacted in the worst possible way.

只怪你和我相爱得太早
对于幸福又了解的太少
于是自私让爱变成煎熬
付出了所有却让彼此想逃跑


So it all ended as quickly as it started. Just like that, it was over.

I've been in relationships afters. But they never last. Maybe subconsiously, I've set you as a standard, a yardstick of what I want and what I'm looking for. And nobody compares to you. Nobody.

见过你的美
我还能爱谁
我一路的追意冷却不心灰
我的世界
走不出你背影的范围


I can't fall for anyone anymore. No one reaches the standards set by you.

I've had more than one friend ask me, why don't I do something about it instead of whining? And my answer? Because I know that there's no chance of anything ever happening again. I screwed up, and I don't want to make myself a nuisance in your life again. I know your definitely more happy the way you are now.

没有关系
你的世界就
让你拥有
不打扰是我的温柔


At least you remembered my birthday. =)

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Wow.. fucking long entry. I'll probably take this down when I'm sober and I realise that I was writing nonsense. Anyway, I better get to sleep. 10am lecture tomorrow man. And its 5am now. What the fuck. =(

(Update : Decided not to take it down after all, unlike the previous ones if you managed to catch them. Just felt that I was telling the truth for once about how much i miss this girl and yep.. if you know me you'll know I don't do that often.. So decided to keep it)

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Priorities

Just came home from billard.

I can't believe I played from 9pm-2am but I just did, and I've an assignment to hand up tomorrow that I haven't finished. Guess that means no sleep for me tonight.

I need to get my priorities right.

But just couldn't bring myself to go home and do work after leaving school today. Freaking tiring day and just had to go somewhere and do something relaxing.

Anyways, at least I had fun. =)

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What if you bought a one dollar item and paid a thousand dollar note for it? I did it today! Twice! Haha..


talk about change

To the NTUC auntie(s)'s credit, she didn't spit on me and slap me across the face, and she was even willing to accept it. But not without closely inspecting the note to see if I was pulling a stunt tho...

Why doesn't the POSB cash deposit machine accept big notes? Caused me so much trouble today lor.. =(

Thursday, September 01, 2005

New Day New Drive~

Enough whining. That was so yesterday. All ready to take on the world today! =)