Sigh..

GoaL~

Finally caught Goal yesterday. If you haven't, please do. It's worth the time. =)

I'm so inspired for Sunday! HAha~! =P

Break up!

Man's Best Friend

You know your in trouble when:

- You buy another pack of cigs the moment your lighter fits into the box.
- Your gums are more black than red.
- You walk 800m to 7-11 at 1.30am to stock up on ya fags on a night out simply because you cant envision yourself left with 2sticks at a pub till 3am.
- You manage to smoke 3 full packs at a barbeque / Europa
- You can't go through a 2hr lecture without a smoke break.
- One pack barely last 2hrs on a night out.
- You've just smoked 2 1/2packs in the last 4 hours.

I'm sad to say I've met all the requirements. Which brings me to the next point. It's time for me to cut down and eventually quit smoking! I've never thought I'll say this but yep, I guess it's about time.

It's bad for my health, but it's even worse for my wallet. There's a strong correlation between the number fags smoked and the weight of my wallet. Granted, there're confounding variables like no. of beers drunk and even lurking variables like whether Man Utd overcomes it's -1 3/4 handicap the next game (wah stats, I'm like so gonna ace my mid term for my stats module), but I've gotta stop for the sake of my health and my cashflow!

Don't get me wrong. I love my fags! But the problem is, it's gotten to a point whereby the fags are controlling me. I've lost the power of choice. It's become part and parcel of my lifestyle, a non-subsitute-able item in my everyday life. Which I guess is the ultimate signal for me to do something about it. It wouldn't be easy. It might even take the longest time. But I'm gonna take it step by step. I'm gonna cut down on the Marlboros. =)

It's been wonderful relationship, 8yrs in the making, but every relationship's gotta come to an end. Peace to you darling! =)

Liking

Was reading Kerk's post on crushes.

How many times have I failed to take the first step just because I was afriad that whatever I did might have ruined our friendship.

I'm infinitely irritated when somebody I don't have feelings for, buggers me. I hate the idea of having someone treating me like 'more than a friend' when the feeling's not mutual. As such, I just don't feel comfortable around that person anymore.

So since I, myself hate that feeling so much, why should I impose such a feeling on someone esle. Which is precisely why I hardly ever make the first move, or why the slightest sign of non-interest's enough to send me far, far away, never to ever attempt again. Likeing someone's wanting that person to have the very best impression of you. Somewhere along those lines, what I described above doesn't fit into the equation at all.

Such a theory hasn't saved me many friendships; I don't 'like' people very often, but it certainly has destroyed a few potential relationships, where I've been interested but quiet, only to find out months or years later that it was mutual.

People say that if you don't try, you'll never know. But how do I 'try' when all I'm convinced that this rebuilt friendship after a cold war so long will crumble if I ever attempt anything?

没有关系
你的世界
就让你拥有
不打扰是我的温柔

Remember?

Maybe I should just find someone I don't really like, don't really care about what she thinks or feels, and just go for it. Let the 2nd in command take over. That's my area of excellence anyway.
But then again. So old liao. Isn't it time to be more mature. The relationship for the sake of having a girlfriend thing's so teenager. Adult liao le wor.. Why take this retarded step backwards?

Which would explain why I'm still ZOTGGI. A good thing or not, I'm still not sure.

God bless me. =(

My Life.

I wake up, I go to school, I come home, I mug. In between I try to get a few hours of billard, a few jugs of beer, and a football game on Sunday every week.

How's yours? =(