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Goodbye 2011

2011-12-31T11:07:00.001+08:00

2011 has been a pretty good year, looking forward to a better 2012!

Beautifully Written

2011-11-29T23:03:00.002+08:00

是你的形影　叫我逐天作眠梦

Exactly

2011-10-06T00:46:00.002+08:00

Ted: I used to believe in destiny, you know? I’d go to the bagel place, see a pretty girl in line reading my favourite novel, whistling the song that’s been stuck in my head all week and I think, “Wow hey, maybe she’s the one.” Now I think, I just know that bitch is going to take the last whole wheat everything bagel.

Robin: You’ve just been focused on work.

Ted: No, it’s more than that. I stopped believing. Not in some depressed, I’m-gonna-cry-during-my-toast way. Not in a way I even noticed until tonight. It’s just, every day, I think I believe a little less, and a little less, and a little less. And that… sucks. What do I do about that, Scherbatsky?

-random

2011-09-15T01:59:00.003+08:00

(obviously a filler post righttttttt) ^^

Hector and the Search for Happiness

2011-08-12T01:56:00.003+08:00

"Lesson no. 3: Many people see happiness only in their future". How apt.

In case your wondering though, I didn't come out with that myself.

The most charming book I've read for awhile now. Despite some dodgy selections, my brother does have some gems in his library.

人来人往

2011-07-20T16:17:00.005+08:00

Back to the old habit of posting lyrics as fillers, but seriously, I'm led to believe that lyricists' have got to be some of the most troubled souls on the planet.

The ability to pen lyrics this sad just isn't normal.

朋友已走
刚升职的你举杯到凌晨还未夠
用尽心机拉我手
缠在我颈背后
说你男友有事忙是借口
说到终于饮醉酒

情侣会走
刚失恋的你哭干眼泪前来自首
寂寞因此牵我手
除下了他手信后
我已得到你没有
但你我至少往后
成为了蜜友

闭起双眼你最挂念谁
眼睛张开身边竟是谁
感激车站里
尚有月台能让我们满足到落泪
拥不拥有也会记住谁
快不快乐留在身体里
爱若能夠永不失去
何以你今天竟想找寻伴侣

谁也会走
刚相恋的你先知我们原来未夠
借故松开我的手
藏在贴纸相背后
我这苦心开过没有
但试过散心旅游
如何答没有

闭起双眼我最挂念谁
眼睛张开身边竟是谁
感激车站里
尚有月台曾让我们满足到落泪
拥不拥有也会记住谁
快不快乐有天总过去
爱若为了永不失去
谁勉强娱乐过谁
爱若难以放进手里
何不将这双手放进心里

时间会走
刚失恋的我开始与旁人攜着手
但什么可以拥有
缠在那颈背后
最美丽长发未留在我手
我也开心饮过酒

Life goes on, but proper closure doesn't necessarily always exist.

Lamentation and a Promise

2011-06-23T23:57:00.006+08:00

It's really strange where random youtube linking out of boredom can take you sometimes. It took me to this today, the prologue for one of my favourite games.

'You have no Courage'

This has to be one of the best trailer openings for a video game ever. Despite the less than impressive graphics, this prologue sets the game up brilliantly. Suspenseful and touching, it leaves so many unanswered questions and keeps the player speculating during the game. The soundtrack (this entry shares the same title as best part) is great as well.

Now, where can I find a reliable PS2 emulator?

Mega Like

2011-05-27T11:49:00.003+08:00

This is gonna sound super frivolous, but i mega like 何韵诗's version of 七友. Awesomeeeeeee.

Memories

2011-05-08T21:27:00.003+08:00

Was clearing my mp3s trying to free up space on my hard drive (yes, at 4mb a piece I'm not gonna free up much, but I'm desperate), and woah, I do still have gems in there. And brought back so many memories of Jazz Pub. Work's so busy I haven't been to NSRCC in over a year. I wonder how my ex-regulars are doing.

Perhaps time to head over soon. For now, I shall just enjoy my trip down memory lane. :)

Quote of the Day

2011-05-02T17:40:00.000+08:00

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." - Dr Seuss

-random

2011-04-23T10:21:00.003+08:00

Guess I've been focusing on the wrong stuff as of late.

Time to shift my attention back to work.

Spyglass at DBSS

2011-04-10T23:20:00.003+08:00

So often, it's made out that we live in a materialistic and cruel world. Yet watching these couples appear so much in bliss, getting a place for a new life together despite their seemingly unspectacular lives makes you wonder if 'love', and the pursuit of happiness is a myth after all.

Hell Week

2011-04-05T23:09:00.001+08:00

8am to 11pm (hopefully) starting tomorrow.

Arghhhhh.

random musings

2011-03-03T20:23:00.006+08:00

Okay, I'm not saying this is personal, but just a random thought at work today.

How do you say the obligatory 'had fun, see you again' shite when you've had a one-night stand. The traditional 'great evening, hope it was same for you, see you soon' just seems so wrong, along with all the possible variations and permutations of 'hope you had a great night'.

'I had a good time, let's do this again sometime' is even worse.

Or do you simply say nothing at all.

In other random musings, sleeping has got to be the worst experience in the human condition. You only feel good for that few moments before falling asleep, feel nothing once you doze off, and wake up to the alarm clock feeling worse than before. And that's not even considering bad dreams.

This has to be the clearest signal from whatever's out there that life is meant to suck.

Zzz.

Work and Resolutions

2011-02-10T05:37:00.004+08:00

The long weekend's past way too fast.

It's back to the monotony of work. I'm half hoping that I can strike the Chinese New Year Toto and just not work another day for the rest of my life.

Dreams aside, time for reality and belated resolutions. I want to match the expectations that I'v set for myself, and I want to live fast (not long) and prosper.

I can be better than this, and perhaps it's time that I show that.

Cheers!

XIII-2

2011-02-01T18:03:00.002+08:00

The love affair continues. :D

Spellbound

2011-01-21T01:12:00.002+08:00

Tell me who you are, I am spellbound
You cannot have this control on me
Everywhere I go, I am spellbound
I will break the spell you put on me

SEA Top 200

2011-01-20T20:41:00.002+08:00

Fuck yea.

Lightning on My Monitor!

2011-01-08T20:42:00.004+08:00

I've found the most gorgeous wallpaper ever!

In other news, I might have also found my resolution for 2011...

And it's to simply be happy.

Without realizing it, I think I've not really been happy for the best part of the last three years, and I guess enough's kinda enough. It's time to find some joy!

So yep, Starcraft, mahjong, beer, work, whatsoever. Gonna make life all sugar and rainbows.

Song of the Month (Again)

2011-01-08T01:45:00.001+08:00

On the first page of our story, the future seemed so bright
And this thing turned out so evil, I don’t know why I’m still surprised
Even angels have their wicked schemes and you take that to new extremes
But you’ll always be my hero, even though you lost your mind

She is My Sin

2010-12-11T22:32:00.006+08:00

Take heed, dear heart
Once apart, she can touch nor me nor you
Dressed as one
A wolf will betray a lamb

Lead astray the gazers
The razors on your seducing skin
In the meadow of sinful thoughts
Every flower's a perfect one

To paradise with pleasure haunted,
Haunted by fear

A sin for him
Desire within, Desire within
A burning veil
For the bride too dear for him
A sin for him Desire within, Desire within
Fall in love with your deep dark sin

I am the Fallen You are what my sins enclose
Lust is not as creative
As its discovery

Bless me, undress me
Pick your prey in a wicked way
God I must confess...
I do envy the sinners

-random

2010-11-28T17:57:00.002+08:00

I smiled.

Beautifully Written

2010-11-08T01:08:00.004+08:00

"Despair remembers.

It is a peculiar, flat memery,
in which things become bleak and bounded by the dark.

There is joy in there,
of course,
and love,
and touching,
The presence that makes the present absence unbearable.

Without truimph,
without love,
without joy,
her work would be for nothing."

-Endless Nights: Fifteen Portraits of Despair. Neil Gaiman.

Ever Dream

2010-10-15T00:38:00.007+08:00

Would you do it with me
Heal the scars and change the stars
Would you do it with me
Turn loose the heaven within

I'll take you away
Castaway on a lonely day
Bosom for a teary cheek
My song can but borrow your grace

Seems like all I'm posting nowadays' a change of song accompanied by the lyrics. Well, there's a reason for that. When i started this blog way back in 2005, I didn't think it would last long. But it did, so I kinda told myself that I shouldn't have any 'blanks' in my archives; meaning at least one entry a month.

Not that hard, I thought to myself. But it actually quite is. Truth is, as much as I love writing, there's really nothing going on in my life that's worth writing about. Life's seriously been one huge downward spiral as of late; I hate the way it's panning out, the monotony, and then my choices of entertainment attempting to break that monotony. It's like this vicious cycle that I can't seem to escape from. I'm just not happy. The only small thing I've got going for me's a pretty decent income. But I figured I wasn't gonna enjoy writing about any of the above. Hence the fillers.

But heck, I like music, and I adore great lyrics. And these are great songs with both. So yeah.

Ever felt away with me
Just once that all I need
Entwined in finding you one day

Ever felt away without me
My love it lies so deep
Ever dream of me?

Septmeber

2010-09-16T14:22:00.001+08:00

All the things I still remember
Summers never looked the same
Years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain.

I Love the Way You Lie

2010-08-12T22:58:00.001+08:00

As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint

You

2010-07-08T04:33:00.004+08:00

Are like beer. Unhealthy at best, yet addictive and intoxicating; a guilty pleasure that I've come to love.

Then, I have too much. And wake up with the world spinning and a foul taste in the mouth, swearing to quit for good.

But time and again for no particular reason, I just have a sudden craving and think, 'fuck, I really miss beer'.

命六鬼鬼

2010-06-06T01:05:00.002+08:00

Derived from my 八字.

The 六 and 鬼 combination means that if I were to get married;

(a) My partner will kick the bucket very early. Or;
(b) I wouldn't have a happy family. Or;
(c) It will end in divorce.

Nice.

ZOTGGI!!!!!!!!

-random

2010-05-11T23:49:00.001+08:00

I'm waiting for the sky
to be blue again
I'm waiting for the smile
to come back again

Sometimes things are not
the way you planned
Sometimes they go wrong
sometimes you can't stand

The voice of the wind
tells me it is within
The roar of the air
gives me strength in despair

Oh, the sound of the trees
can make you fly off your feet
But the sound of silence
can make you see

An angel of hope, can you see again?
The journey of life, can you live again?
A city of glory, can you feel again?
It's the spirit of love, can you love again?

-P.R. Samson

Things I Wanna Do.

2010-05-01T01:12:00.009+08:00

Random thought came across my mind on the way to cage. Work takes up the majority of my time now, but life's gotta be more than that right? One item grew into a list so thought I'll write about it while I still remember. Here are the things I want to do in the short run, before I turn 30 perhaps (okay this will probably be boring to anyone esle but me).

1. Travel
There are so many places that I want to visit, places I've read about, but could never afford to go to before. Cities like Venice, London, Amsterdam, Prague, Rome, Vegas, Cape Town, etc. And to watch United at the Theatre of Dreams. The list goes on. But I also want to;

2. Relax
A sunny spring day with 10degree-rish temperature (New Zealand perhaps) on a hammock with a good book and a beer. Holidays are often such a mad rush due to limited time that people tend to forget the aim was to relax and enjoy in the first place. A peaceful day spent this way would be perfect.

3. Get better at my job
Not that I'm horrible now, but obviously, there's room to grow, and I've been unable to handle some of stuff thrown my way well enough recently. To be more patient, and less careless.

4. Drink more beer
Killing the older and weaker brain cells, making my brain a leaner, more efficient machine. This will contribute massively to the above point. Also, this could actually mean more off days. though that, may be a little detrimental to the below;

5. To hit $150,000.
In annual income. Kinda stretching it, considering what I'm currently earning, but what's the use of such a list if I can't aim high? However, it may also be mutually exclusive to the next point which is to;

6. Get a law degree.
The most beautiful thing in the Human Condition is not love, friendship, sex or whatsoever. It's subjectivity. And I think law is the epitome of that (or maybe I don't know shit, too many movies perhaps). Arguing perceived intentions and drawing differing conclusions through the subjective interpretations of words, actions or writing. And that is utterly brilliant.

7. To leave zotggi
Hmmmm, since I'm at it, might as well. Sorry President Yuda, a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do. T_T

8. Date Elisha Cuthbert
Okay, scratch that, overdoing it, lol. But really, isn't she the most gorgeous thing in the whole whole whole whole whole wide world.

9. Be nice to my family
While they irritate the shit out of me at times, they're the only ones that I've got. So yeah.

Okay that's all for now. Will probably have the spare time to think about more tomorrow. For now, I need to sleep. 2am. I'm so fucked.

Life(less) in Numbers.

2010-04-26T00:29:00.004+08:00

12 + 12 + 19 + 18 + 15 + 16 + 15 = 107

107 / 168 = 0.637

The Graveyard Book

2010-04-15T22:21:00.003+08:00

A little ironic, considering the title, but a book this brilliant makes me long for a sunny afternoon on a comfy sofa to read it in.

Awesome.

Filler

2010-04-15T01:02:00.003+08:00

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on." — Robert Frost.

How true. If we were to take things a little easier; to see a little further; to laugh a little louder; to self-destruct a little lesser; and to live, a little fuller, our worlds would be much happier place, don't you think?

Struck by an epiphany of sorts. Maybe it's really been long enough.

Life

2010-03-25T18:53:00.002+08:00

is in such a mess on so many levels that I don't even know where to begin.

Blind

2010-03-24T12:52:00.002+08:00

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it

Of Lightning and Snow

2010-03-18T00:47:00.012+08:00

When was the last time you had the urge to be home as soon as you could? At the risk of sounding like a total geek, I've found mine.

Brilliant story-telling, interesting characters, engaging play and amazing graphics.

Even the bloody equipment tab's uber gorgeous.

Oh, and her of course. I feel like a schoolboy all over again.

Fug all the complains about the game's linearity. Final Fantasy XIII is simply awesome.

You have to see it to believe it.

Totally biased point of view, I know. But this is not supposed to be a review anyway. More like me saying, 'goodbye life'. :)

Happy Post

2010-03-13T00:56:00.003+08:00

It's amazing what two hours of football can do for the mind.

Feeling uber good despite the fatigue. :)

Musings

2010-03-11T22:35:00.002+08:00

We live in a world; where the soul is gratified by the material; where fidelity is overrated; where marriages are borne of pragmatism and sustained via habit; where love is analogous with lust.

The sooner we realize that, the sooner we stop that embarrassing excitment at the mundane and expected.

Quotable Quotes

2010-03-10T01:12:00.002+08:00

A friend of mine was asking for a good quote today, which kinda got me thinking. The irony of a good quote's that it often gets so over-quoted or mis-used that it turns corny or becomes a cliche.

Take for instance, Maya Angelou when she says, 'Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away'. Simple, meaningful and quite beautiful actually, but if someone said that to me, I'll probably think his uber melodramatic.

Or how about Eleanor Roosevelt's "Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why we call it 'The Present'." Ohhhhhhh, how VR Man (if you can actually remember that shite show) killed that one.

Army most defintely removed any liking I would have otherwise had for Friedrich Nietzsche's 'That which does not kill us makes us stronger".

But here are some wise words for you my friends, which considering my pathetic readership, should remain quite safe. May the force be with you (nope this isn't not one of them).

'Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.' - John Lennon.

Therefore.

'We are all in the gutter but some of us are looking at the stars.' - Oscar Wilde

Thus,

'Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.' - Dr. Seuss.

Okay that didn't come off as brilliantly as I thought it would. I think I need a beeeeeeeeeerrrrrr.

-random

2010-02-21T02:18:00.002+08:00

Alright, time to snap outta it.

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit, tonight.

2010-02-01T19:37:00.004+08:00

wankercuntarseballsbitchdickshiteslutpusswhorefuck.

SAT-SU-FUCKING-GAI!!!!

Like the Diamond in your Ring

2010-02-01T19:09:00.005+08:00

Vindicated. I should be feeling good, but I'm not.

Because under those circumstances, it doesn't change a thing.

Sadly.

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning grey

-random

2010-01-31T12:42:00.001+08:00

I hate hangovers.

-random

2009-12-31T04:52:00.000+08:00

Another year gone past.

Drops of Jupiter

2009-11-12T00:58:00.002+08:00

Oh goodness, have had this for eons but never quite realized just how beautiful it was until today.

Tell me
Did the wind sweep you off your feet?
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky way

Tell me
Did Venus blow your mind?
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there.

Foong; Or Something Like That

2009-10-29T23:01:00.005+08:00

Circumstance dictate that I contrive a mediated response.

Yet unable still, to suppress these thoughts. I crave the fulfillment of a distant past, I obsess over what might have been, I desire that which will never be mine.

And this conflict's driving me insane.

Forgive me for I don't know what I gain,
Alone in this garden of pain,
Enchantment has but one truth;
I weep to have what I fear to lose.

Music is

2009-10-07T23:15:00.002+08:00

Emotion in search of words; angst in need of an audience.

Smell

2009-09-24T21:38:00.005+08:00

Did you read the Newpaper today? About the guy who apparently spontaneously ejaculates? While that's either the world's lamest excuse or the saddest condition known to man, it's how he was found out that's the interesting part.

I quote, "That was when her (the victim) friend noticed wet spots on Chong's jacket. He took it, smelled it, and realized it was semen. Her friend then told Chong, 'this is yours, right? We are all men, you should know what this is."

How the fuck do you recognise semen through smell? It's scary to think where the knowledge and confidence in his accusation came from.

I never even fucking knew semen had a smell.

-random

2009-09-15T04:14:00.003+08:00

Relapsing into misery.

-random

2009-09-03T02:08:00.002+08:00

"The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference." - Elie Wiesel

How absolutely true.

'Too Bad'

2009-08-09T21:13:00.007+08:00

Two students were killed in a train accident yesterday. Dreadful, a total waste of two young lives, but what intrigued me was the spokesman's choice of words.

'We have emergency brakes, but the train will still move 400 to 500 metres before it stops. If the train stops suddenly, the impact can cause it to derail.'

'So if you're within the braking distance, then it's too bad.'

Too bad? Like what-the-hell. Surely there are better ways of putting it. And while I'm not an engineer, 400 to 500 metres' a ridiculously long distance ain't it. Kinda defeats the purpose of 'emergency braking', cause everybody who initiates one's gonna fall into the 'too bad' category anyway.

Then again, I'm probably being random again.

Life

2009-08-07T02:09:00.007+08:00

Been work non-stop for the past month plus, nothing eventful of late. At least time flies by while one's preoccupied. Afterall, the passage of time is supposed to be the miracle medicine, ain't it.

On thoughts, the mind's a mangled mess, of stuff both momentous and frivolous; both noteworthy and random. And this lack of organisation inside my head continues to infuriate me.

Mu-zik

2009-08-07T01:41:00.004+08:00

I'm not usually into rap, but Eminem can really be quite brilliant at times.

In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'll be like to

Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each others' minds
Just to see what we'll find
Look at shit through each others' eyes

-random

2009-08-06T00:42:00.004+08:00

how true.

364

2009-07-31T00:38:00.003+08:00

How did something that felt so right turn so wrong?

So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell
Blue skies from pain
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail
A smile from a veil
Do you think you can tell

-random

2009-07-20T00:30:00.003+08:00

So vivid yet so distant; so gone yet so unforgotten.

Graduation

2009-07-13T20:06:00.011+08:00

The end of the Singapore Schooling Experience.

Kinda hard to believe that a slacker like me actually made it through.

Random Swirls.

2009-06-19T03:15:00.010+08:00

I miss the laughs, miss the late nights, and miss the last jug of beer we always had.

I miss walking you home, miss the feeling of your hand in mine, and miss wishing you good night.

I miss your smile, miss your nonsenscial comments, and miss that dainty charm of yours.

I miss the times we used to have, I miss the joy you used to bring, and most of all, I miss you.

Life

2009-06-15T02:29:00.003+08:00

Work in a few hours. Not exactly how I've envisioned it, but oh well, I'll take it.

All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. - William Shakespeare

Foxayyy

2009-06-10T03:44:00.005+08:00

If what I read and heard's true..

Megan Fox might damn pretty well be a man

Potentially millions of pubescent boys wanking off to a man. Fuck, its almost too good not to be true.

-random

2009-06-09T02:09:00.001+08:00

Wait.

2009-05-25T01:53:00.005+08:00

Hold. Listen.

This is absolutely beautiful.

Now you just say, "Oh Romeo?"
"Yeah, you know I used to have a scene with him."

Rambling

2009-05-23T01:52:00.003+08:00

Despite everything, I can't seem to shake away the fact that when I'm not distracted by beer, football, the company of my friends or whatever, I am miserable. Try as I might, staring at the screen, I can't even express as to why so in words.

And I fucking resent that.

"There is no greater sorrow than to recall happiness in times of misery" - Dante Alighieri

-random

2009-05-20T02:17:00.005+08:00

Many times, misinterpretations of circumstances results in spurious perceptions of oneself's destiny. Dedication or delusion; perseverance or perversion. Really too fine a line ain't it?

Moving On

2009-05-12T01:38:00.003+08:00

Weirdly, graduation doesn't feel as good as it should. Not even close.

"I've been making a list of the things they don't teach you at school. They don't teach you how to love somebody. They don't teach you how to be famous. They don't teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don't teach you how to walk away from someone you don't love any longer. They don't teach you how to know what's going on in someone else's mind. They don't teach you what to say to someone who's dying. They don't teach you anything worth knowing." - Neil Gaiman

0619

2009-04-22T06:12:00.005+08:00

Happy endings are but fantasies
A whim of the optimist
Yet to perceive the innate ironies
Nor partake in the blatant cruelties
Of the abominable joke
Better known as 'Life'
Serves each passing day.

0622

2009-04-16T06:04:00.007+08:00

Memories too vivid to cast away
Ask me not
For I ill know what to gain
Through seeking the physical to compensate
An inability to comprehend
Except that it blurs the boundaries
Between pleasure and the pain.

-random

2009-04-14T01:51:00.002+08:00

Oh how I wish, for soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again.

Football's a Crazy Game

2009-04-07T13:11:00.005+08:00

In a week of Macheda's magical winner and this wicked, wicked, wicked goal by Grafite against Bayern, we now have this:

'A FOOTBALL team who tried to put the wind up a penalty taker were left with more than red faces.

One of Chorlton Villa's players was given a yellow card for allegedly breaking wind as a spot kick was taken. The penalty was saved - but ordered to be retaken when the ref decided the noise had put the kicker off.

Villa's goalkeeper was red carded for saying he believed the ref was 'the worst he had seen in years'. Minutes later another Villa player was sent off for expressing disbelief that his team-mate had been booked for flatulence.

The re-taken penalty was scored by rivals International Manchester.

Villa, who won the game 6-4, finished the match at Turn Moss, Stretford, with just eight men. They had already had another player dismissed for giving the ref abuse.' - Manchester Evening News

What a game.

Paper Beer

2009-04-04T20:30:00.001+08:00

'I've always believed that paradise will have my favorite beer on tap' - Rudyard Wheatley.

Well, not quite exactly, but this comes pretty close i guess.

Rambling

2009-04-03T13:18:00.001+08:00

Gotta get to school to pick up my dissertation. I fucking hate it when I've gotta travel 4 hours to be in school for 5 fucking minutes.

Just felt like letting you people know that.

'I'll bet it couldn't believe its luck'

2009-03-28T13:17:00.004+08:00

Watch the whole routine if you've got the time. This guy's brilliant.

-random

2009-03-20T02:07:00.002+08:00

And it may take some time to patch me up inside
But I can't take it so i run away and hide
And I may find in time that you were always right
You're always right.

-random

2009-03-18T00:08:00.003+08:00

I just read that there's gonna be a film adaptation of Alice Seblod's The Lovely Bones. I hope they don't fuck it up, cause, it's a pretty brilliant book.

Belief

2009-03-09T16:19:00.003+08:00

"I can believe things that are true and I can believe things that aren't true and I can believe things where nobody knows if they're true or not. I can believe in Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny and Marilyn Monroe and the Beatles and Elvis and Mister Ed. "

"I believe that people are perfectible, that knowledge is infinite, that the world is run by secret banking cartels and is visited by aliens on a regular basis, nice ones that look like wrinkledy lemurs and bad ones who mutilate cattle and want our water and our women. I believe that the future sucks and I believe that the future rocks and I believe that one day White Buffalo Woman is going to come back and kick everyone's ass."

"I believe that all politicians are unprincipled crooks and I still believe that they are better than the alternative. I believe that antibacterial soap is destroying our resistance to dirt and disease so that one day we'll all be wiped out by the common cold like the Martians in War of the Worlds."

"I believe that mankind's destiny lies in the stars. I believe that candy really did taste better when I was a kid, that its aerodynamically impossible for a bumblebee to fly, that light is a wave and a particle, that there is a cat in a box somewhere who's alive and dead at the same time (although if they don't ever open the box to feed it it'll eventually just be two different kinds of dead), and that there are stars in the universe billions of years older than the universe itself."

"I believe in a personal god who cares about me and worries and oversees everything I do. I believe in an impersonal god who set the universe in motion and went off to hang with her girlfriends and doesn't even know that I'm alive. I believe in an empty and godless universe of causal chaos, background noise, and sheer blind luck."

"I believe that anyone who says that sex is overrated just hasn't done it properly. I believe that anyone who claims to know what's going on will lie about the little things too. I believe in absolute honesty and sensible social lies. I believe in a woman's right to choose, a baby's right to live, that while all human life is sacred there's nothing wrong with the death penalty if you can trust the legal system implicitly, and that no one but a moron would ever trust the legal system."

"I believe that life is a game, that life is a cruel joke, and that life is what happens when you're alive and that you might as well lie back and enjoy it."
-Excerpts from Samantha Black Crow in Neil Gaiman's American Gods.

Fortune, fame. Mirror vain. Gone insane. But the memory remains.

2009-02-26T05:22:00.001+08:00

No longer a part-time bartender,the pub has seen me through so much. I'm gonna miss the place; sitting on the beer barrel, performing lame magic tricks, boozing my life away with my regulars.

Goodbyes are never easy to say. I wish it could've been some other way. Work has never been so fun. And you have all been a part of it.

So to all the friends I've made over this past year and a half: The pub may be gone, but the memory remains. Take care, and may our paths cross soon again.

And cant the band play on
Just listen, they play my song
Ash to ash
Dust to dust
Fade to black

Chuck Again

2009-02-12T04:29:00.009+08:00

There are good months, and there are bad months. And then there are the really bad months. Bereavement, deadlines, bills and retrenchment. Chuck has certainly seen better times. An awfully bad time to be doing too much thinking, but some things do innately trigger certain responses. And today was one of those.

'You're not perfect, neither am I. Perhaps nothing is. But the relationship came pretty darn close, at least to me. It was comfortable, it was peaceful, it was blissful. It was everything I sought, everything I wished for. Maybe everything breaks down in time. The only affliction came from the way it did. I just shrugged and kept moving, an actor's smile masking the conflict between an indifference portrayed outside and the disappointment within.'

'Through good and bad, I never regretted you. Put me back in time and I'll re-walk the same route. So I never quite understood your reluctance to return. Nor your justifications and fear. They say people forget what others say, what others do, but they never forget how others made them feel. Nothing like searching for that sense of peace you used to give, during these trying times to illustrate how true that is. And that maybe I'm not so okay afterall.'

Chuck

2009-01-19T03:57:00.010+08:00

It could be her eyes or her smile. It could be the ridiculously long courtship and how he enjoyed every minute of it. It could even be simply the way she made him feel. Chuck could never pinpoint what. But he knew he did.

'There's something wrong,' Chuck thought. 'This is supposed to be hard.' Or at least for him. But Chuck was wrong. Falling in love is easy, falling out of love is the hard part.

And so it was. After exhausting the ears anyone he felt close enough to listen (you look like shite, a friend had kindly told him), Chuck turned to the bottle. And with the bottle went his senses. Chuck slept with more women in a couple of months than he did in the past couple of years. Yet something evaded him. A sense of loss, of emptiness. 'Something wrong?' A voice whose owner's name Chuck could not remember asked from beside. Chuck said nothing. He simply left.

So he sat in the local karaoke bar, listening to the horrible screeching (singing) of another Jay Chou wannabe.

最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐

Reminiscing, he thinks of the night they stood in the rain, holding on to each other as if they never wanted to let go. He thinks back upon every day of their short-lived relationship and the fights they had since. And he recalls his decision to stay away.

别想你忍不住我提醒自己
伤了心有些事也要过去
心很痛痛的不想再做我
自己别回头情已去缘已尽
很想你也不是因为失去你
爱了你用尽我全心全力

As another song by another horrible singer gets his thoughts going.

'I do miss you; when I lie on my bed, sleepless in the middle of the night feeling small; when the going-ons of everyday life makes me feel lousy; when I'm working in the small hours, looking for someone to talk to; when I'm happy, wishing you were there to share it with.'

'But most of all, I miss you when your around. When you're here. When you're not, I can think of what's happened as a memory from a distant past, a bad dream, or even a figment of my imagination. It's easier this way.'

And Chuck wonders if this is the right thing to do. But he does not care anymore. Not for now at least. As he gets up to leave, he at last hears a decent singer on a song with lyrics that happen to hit home.

在有生的瞬间能遇到你
竟花光所有运气
到这日才发现
曾呼吸过空气

Perhaps.

*****

Wow, if your here I guess you bothered to read this entry. I was listening to a regular on 'love' at work the other day and thought of writing something along those lines. That's what Neil Gaiman does for you.

Now tht I've finally gotten down to writing it, I'm not gonna insult your intelligence by claiming this story is purely fictional but well, at least most of it is. I hope you enjoyed it bitches. =)

Win Prize

2009-01-12T02:49:00.003+08:00

From Ananova:

An armed robber was arrested after he held up a bank - and returned minutes later to pay off his overdraft.

The man ran into the Kredi Bank in the Serbian ski resort Nova Varos wearing a balaclava and brandishing a shotgun and demanded tellers hand over all the cash they had. He got the equivalent of £30,000 in cash and then ran out of the bank. Staff were still recovering from the shock of the robbery when Grlic, this time without his balaclava, walked back in to settle his overdraft.

Sharp-eyed staff recognised the distinctive trainers he'd been wearing and called police. A police spokesman said: "The man had been wearing bright red trainers and everyone remembered them distinctly when they saw him run out of the bank.

"They could not believe their eyes when they saw a man wearing the same shoes come back in and kept him in the bank talking about his overdraft while our officers arrived."

The man, aged 33, has now been charged with armed robbery.

Happy New Year

2009-01-01T06:23:00.005+08:00

As yet another year flies by, each more eventful than the last, he looks back on the year gone by.

When despondence threatens to surface as the images of mirth quickly descend into those of dejection, he consoles himself with the cliche of growth, that though maturity through experience is often bitter, it ultimately makes him better, stronger and just that little bit wiser.

With that, he forced a smile, closed his eyes and dreamt of a better year ahead.

Dreams

2008-12-26T15:56:00.003+08:00

"It was a dream, and in dreams you have no choices: either there are no decisions to be made, or they were made for you long before ever the dream began." - Neil Gaiman in American Gods.

-random

2008-12-22T06:47:00.002+08:00

Now I think I'm just being lame, but..

wtf?

Someone google-ed my email address. And ended up here.

Kinda dodgy ain't it?

It's My Life

2008-12-20T09:20:00.010+08:00

What can two bored retards suffering from a similiar inability to sleep do at 8am in the morning?
.
..
...
....
.....

They watch each other play Chinese Chess on Viwawa!

raperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperape

Although actually, it's surprisingly entertaining and funny watching someone play chess in a semi-conscious state.

I think I need a life.

Bangkok (mis)Adventure Day 6 & 7

2008-12-09T15:38:00.017+08:00

'Now Everyone Can Fly'

My. fucking. arse. But I'll get to that in awhile.

So anyways, day 6 was spent packing up and watching Southpark and DMC in the hotel room, since we had nothing better to do at this point already. 5pm quickly came and it was time for our 12 hour ride to Phuket.

all excited, 5pm. T_T

our ride

'are we there yet?'

and finally, Phuket Airport, 4am.

Kerk is very happy

but cb, what's this. Luckily, Air-fucking-Asia was the only airline which wasn't cancelled, or so we thought.

crowds form at about 5am

and oh yes, fuck you AirAsia

And yea, this is the part where I curse Air-fucking-Asia to hell. After the 12 hour ride to Phuket, and a 3 hour wait, we found the Air Asia check in counter empty. Despite the monitor saying that flights were going on as per normal. Sick of waiting, we decided to go to its booth to enquire, and oh joy, the flight was cancelled cause the plane was grounded in Bangkok (or something like that, but i don't care).

And why was there no fucking attempt at any point in time to try to communicate this information to us, either earlier through email or through the airport monitor displays. It's as if the fucking sub-standard rubbish turd shite of an airline thought that if they kept quiet, the passengers would just disappear. What's the point of taking down the passenger's particulars you are not going to contact them if a delay occurs. And this wasn't even an unexpected delay. On the contrary, it was so expected that I wonder why these pathetic turds even sold tickets in the fucking first place (oh, my planes are stuck, but I'll sell tickets anyways. Who cares if I might not actually manage to get the flight moving. I'm a shite airline, I don't care).

So the useless son of a shite bitch (USSB) at the booth offered us a flight to KL instead, saying there were 5 spaces available. So we told the USSB to hold the tickets for us so we could go get our passports. We had even barely began moving when USSB told us that the tickets were gone through online booking. So what is the point of a fucking booth if you cannot hold 4 fucking tickets for 2 fucking minutes?

and yes, so we sleep on the cold airport floor again.

And because no attempt was made to contact us about the delay, we were unable to get an alternative flight, with the next available flight 4 days away. Thus began our sidequest of harassing the check-in counter staff of other (better) airlines to see if there were places to slot us in. Failure after failure, we were about to give up hope when Les remembered a final Silkair flight. And we managed, thank God, to get on that.

home sweet home

Homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. And what a way to end a trip.

Bangkok (mis)Adventure Day 5

2008-12-07T02:46:00.013+08:00

'fortune favours the brave'

Or so we thought, as with no further updates from last night, cause BBC decided that the protest didn't merit more than random 1 minute highlights, and cause we couldn't understand Thai, we decided to travel to the airport to check if we could fly. Les also phoned the hotel reception in the morning and we were told that we could give it a try (and yes, I do realize how stupid this sounds in retrospect). So off we went.

The cab driver was only too happy to take us. ("400 BAHTTT??!! NO METERRRR!!")

We only realized how bad things actually were when we saw that the protesters had barricaded the expressway. And we were made to alight on the highway and walk for nearly an hour to the airport...

Only be greeted by an abandoned airport. There were no counters open, and to add to the confusion, nothing was set up to provide stranded tourist with information and updates. In short, no one knew what was going-on.

We were also lucky that at that point, the protesters haven't moved inside the airport yet as well. (although if we hadn't been scheduled to fly off on the first full day of the protest, we'll probably have seen what the protest grew into and avoided the airport altogether)

my. fucking. arse.

there wasn't even wireless internet access for us to find information online

so basically, if your stranded, all you can do is sleep, or..

walk around taking videos, or even..

walking into the main protest body itself to take a video.

So guess what, it was back to Bangkok City, and another opportunity to get raped by cabbies.

our new hotel of choice recommended by the cabbie

short exploration of the hotel's surroundings

Our plan now was to take a 12 hour car journey down to Phuket the next day, and fly home from there. Would fortune really favour the brave? Or would we get screwed up our asses. Stay tuned. T_T

Bangkok (mis)Adventure Day 4

2008-12-06T18:03:00.013+08:00

'And that is why you guys always get into trouble'

Today was supposed to our last day in Bangkok. With an early flight the next day, the plan for the day was to chill; MBK and some city sight-seeing in the day, tiger beer gallery (again) in the evening, and Champions League in the room at night.

MBK outside and inside

cheap fast food cuz we're all broke T_T

just say No .

After MBK, we decided to take a little walk around Bangkok city as the weather wasn't particularly punishing. Oh, and I liked the area's concept of interconnected overhead bridges for pedestian movement.

altho its so extreme that i think the Thais have a fetish for overhead bridges.

Siam Paragon

Actually we went to a lot more place but I can't remember the names. So anyways, it was off to Tiger Beer Galleries for beer for the 4th time in 4 days.

the best place in all of Bangkok

totally full even on a Tuesday night

and our favourite pork sausage (fug, is this a sign) dinner

our fav chiobu

Midway through our night at Translate, news was starting to filter through from family and friends that the PAD had taken over the airport, causing all flights in and out of Bangkok to be cancelled. And our reaction?

'CHEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!'

But for most part, we didn't really think that things would become as bad as they did, the general train of thought was that the worst case scenario was maybe a day's delay in our flight. I guess we're a little too used and pampered by the efficiency the Motherland. Or maybe we were just a tad naive. But no-one thought at that point of time that going home was gonna be a problem.

although juve and united did bore us a little.

And so, we packed our bags (oh, the irony) and went to sleep, totally unprepared for what was to happen tomorrow.

Bangkok (mis)Adventure Day 3

2008-12-04T21:12:00.012+08:00

'all i want is a suit'

It's day 3, and time to visit the tailor's.

yuda unable to recover after being ravaged by kerk the night before

and now kerk wants a piece of Lester

So it was a short walk to Indra Square to look for the legendary cheap but good Indian tailor.

dodgy international club outside our hotel

smelly river

the walk

Indra Square

There was nothing much in Indra Square as I explored the place a little while the guys were checking out the tailors, which wasn't very cheap actually. In the end, the guys tailored their suits from some random street store, which can be seen on Lester's left 2 pictures up.

Then it was to Platinum for lunch and shopping. And again, there wasn't really anything much as well. Maybe I'm just not a shopping person.

whatever this sign means

fallout 3

Central world, we love tiger translate!

And it was drinks after that to end a short short day 3. Tomorrow would be a far more exciting day as the PAD would storm the Suvarnabhumi Airport.

Bangkok (mis)Adventure Day 2

2008-12-03T16:15:00.015+08:00

'The most beautiful woman in the world is a man.'

Or an ex-man at least, but more of that later. First up in the morning was Chaktuchak Market.

Chaktuchak Market

And it was huge. I guess we'll probably have explored the place more if the weather hadn't been so hot, but four hours there was plenty already I guess.

And Kerk got pwned again by..

The biggest beef steak in the world

And after that it was to Central World for a really really really hardcore heavy dinner before the guys went for a massage and I went back to the room to read. And now that all the boring stuff's outta the way, it was time for the main event, Patpong!

Dry run for later in the night.

Kerk fits right in!

And yes, I was getting to my point. So after Les got repeatedly raped by the watch sellers (rape rape rape rape rape rape rape rape rape rape) we settled in some random bar with girls dancing on the bartop.

And, some of the girls were hot. I mean really really really really really fucking knnccb hot. Yet, there was a dodgy factor to it, and we spent the night debating which ones were transformers
(which was pretty funny and fun).

Oh, and I saw the most beautiful woman in the world, only to realize that... 'her' voice was lower than mine.

And. That. Sums. Up. Our. Lives. Time to go back, fucking zotggi.

Kerk settled for some hot and steamy time with yuda instead

and room service for supper

And that was the end of our tour of Bangkok's premier dodgy area. Pretty eye opening actually, but that was that and it was on to day 3.

Bangkok (mis)Adventure Day 1

2008-12-03T08:00:00.013+08:00

'It is a good day to travel.'

Or so says Kerk, kicking off our trip with a nice little taboo. Inevitably, we promptly got hit by a thunderstorm, leading to a flight delay. (not to mention that in this trip, we'll end up running into an airport protest, being stranded in Bangkok THEN Phuket, and spending a fuckload of money trying to get home.)

All smiles despite the setback

The delay didn't last long though, and we touched down in Bangkok around 8pm local time. Also, Kerk managed to clear the customs smoothly for once. (what can a junkie bring into Bangkok that they don't already have?)

And with that, it was quickly to the hotel via Crazy Taxi. To ride on a busy road against the flow of traffic was a pretty new experience for me.

Crazy Taxi

And since it was too early to club, the first place we headed to was Central World which was just across our hotel to check out the beer galleries.

TRANSLATE!

Which was actually a lot like Europa which we used to frequent, except that it's probably about five times bigger, cheaper and busier. With hot beer promoters too (although technically, all I've ever seen is them standing around).

Kerk is stoned

Different city, same beer

And after a beer or five, it was time for the main event at RCA, which was a stretch of clubs, which differed slightly from the ones we have here in concept. There was no dance floor; patrons mostly stayed near their tables and did whatever from there. Apparently, according to Yuda (or was it Lester, but anyways, ah beng!) this is kinda like Dragonfly.

RCA

Everybody loves Foong

Oh, and we have our first casualty of the trip.

Red Label Owns You

To make matters worse, our cab driver got lost, so we alighted, and... we got lost too, adding Fallout 3 to the list of games we have or were gonna play in Thailand. After half an hour, we finally found our way back to the hotel, ending a short day 1.

Phuket

2008-11-28T19:03:00.003+08:00

My name is Foong. Last Saturday, I ended my exams and went to Bangkok with Lester, Kerk and Yuda for a short holiday. I was so happy. Then, the PAD decided to organise a camping session at Suvarnabhumi Airport the night before my flight home.

26 hours ago, we embarked on a 12 hour ride to Phuket, only to be royally screwed upon arrival by Air-fucking-Asia.

Full story to follow.

Oh, oh, and plenty of thanks to those who were worried about me and enquired about the situation or my well-being in one way or another. Really do appreciate it, and I'm genuinely touched and grateful by your concern. =)

Bang Cock

2008-11-27T05:52:00.004+08:00

Yes boys, I'm still alive and we'll be heading to Phuket in 12 hours and flying home on Friday morning.

Stay tuned for updates.

-random

2008-11-20T01:34:00.004+08:00

This is my wish for you; comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, and love to complete your life.

Successful Birthdays

2008-11-12T01:55:00.002+08:00

Why Malcolm is the devil.

ToOn (malcolm) says: everytime brain brithday
ToOn says: in the end is i organise one
ToOn says: ccb
Sup (brain) says: wad sia
bRian - going to hk soon , then the real hk in dec says: lol. so organise i can go one.
Sup says: then can i mention ur organisation skills sux ass
ToOn says: why
Sup says: coz the last time i went home at 11pm

City of Thieves

2008-11-11T15:33:00.002+08:00

by David Benioff's quite brilliant. So much that I just spent the entire morning finishing it despite being way behind time for Friday's paper.

I am so fucked.

Life, or Something Like That.

2008-11-03T02:46:00.007+08:00

Now that my (rich, rich, rich) bro's actually went ahead and gotten the PS3 I intended to buy, all I gotta do now is wait, wait, and wait..

for her..

and him.

happy days ahead, 2009!

Disillusion

2008-10-30T02:23:00.008+08:00

is when you swallow your pride only to be met by pointless insinuations.

-random

2008-10-25T17:06:00.000+08:00

'It has occasionally been remarked upon that it is as easy to overlook something large and obvious as it is to overlook something small and niggling, and that the large things one overlooks can often cause problems.' - Neil Gaiman in Stardust.

2008-10-18T15:26:00.001+08:00

-random

2008-10-17T15:41:00.008+08:00

Thank God for House. It makes me laugh, kinda a rarity these days.

Breathing

2008-10-04T06:00:00.004+08:00

Hold. Wait. Listen.

This version's absolutely beautiful. I pray to hell they'll play it tonight.

12 hours to Lifehouse!

Fug. I'm such a fanboy.

I am hanging on every word you say
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
I want nothing more than
To sit outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I wanna be